I Wonder...

What are you writing? It would be fascinating to see the notes of students in my classes. I mean, sometimes I’m just talking, trying to explain something, cracking a joke, clearly venturing into highly tangential territory… but students just keep on writing. I understand their frantic scribbling when I put up a slide with definitions, dates, names, etc…but sometimes it’s just a picture— it represents a thought, accompanied by some blathering from me. I can’t possibly imagine how these moments would be translated into class notes. I considered the possibility that it’s just doodling. But you know, anyone with a few classes under their belt can spot a doodler from a mile away. The distinctive wrist movements of drawing as opposed to writing are pretty clear (for any students reading this, FYI: your professors can also detect the ipod cord “hiding” under your hoodie). It really looks like you are writing something down. But what? What did I just say that you could possibly write down? I’m not even sure what I just said. Shit. I would really like to know. Can I borrow your notes?

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Keyword:

I just finished reading your paper for class. I detected something was a little off since page one. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it. Your writing is alright, some problems, but nothing too serious. Your ideas and citations, hmm…they have me baffled. Where did you find this whack shit? I was confused; I certainly did not teach you this. I decided to investigate. I took the most obvious word I could think of regarding your topic. You clearly know what that word is (at least we are in agreement on that). I typed it into the most obvious database available through our library (oh, we agree on what that is too). The references that appear on page one are identical to your bibliography. Which is kind of funny really. There is some whack shit out there! It contains what are likely the exact references that some student in a completely different department writing a completely different paper has been looking for. Think about that keyword…it could mean other things couldn’t it? Relate to issues far outside of your paper- yes? This is not good. No wonder you paper is so strange. It is based on 15 abstracts, many of which have no relevance to your topic. Your professors spend a lot of time on these journal databases too (we are searching for ourselves under various keywords and reading the latest issue of Plow Science). Refrain from doing this again.

Dileffonte

Dr. Mysterio

Oh, it’s you. I’ve been wondering who you were. I have been curious about your identity for a few weeks now. Prior to this, I had constructed your image based on the clues you have been leaving me. The most obvious indication of your personality is your chronic inability to manage your time. You force me to think about this quirk of yours three times a week. I got this clue. As I stand here in the hallway waiting for your class to clear out, so my class can come in, I am left to ponder this issue. It is good that I can stand here immersed in my thoughts of you, because otherwise I am trapped chit-chatting with my students as we wait. It is an awkward social position for all of us. There are additional clues. You REALLY like scribbling on the whiteboard, and you really don’t like erasing the whiteboard or putting the caps back on the dry erase markers. Your class seems interesting, you leave copies of your assignments and handouts all over the dais. They are very mysterious to me, I cannot quite pinpoint what class this is. I could look it up, but that would ruin the mystery. Every day there is a different combination of lights and various technologies turned on and off. You must really like to mix things up. Until now, that’s all I knew about you. After a week, I finally realized that you must exit, your usual 5-8 minutes late, through that funky little door at the back of the room. I enter through the main door, hence the mystery of your identity. But I saw you today, indeed making your escape through that weird door. Doesn’t that open into that strange inter-building alley space? One of those odd campus spaces created through very poor construction planning? What are you doing back there? Where could you possibly be going that you would want to start your journey there? Anyway, I caught a glimpse of you. Now I know that you are tall, skinny, and wear a hat. Many mysteries still remain however. We have all semester, so no rush. You leave your clues and I will collect them. Just know, I got the you cannot end class on time clue— no need to keep sending me that message.

Dear TIAA-CREF

Look, I am sure you have received a plethora of angry letters from your clients lately, but I am not writing to complain about all the money you’ve lost for me (larger economic issues are at play, I can see that). I am writing to complain about your advertising. Your commercials make me feel awful. STOP with the guilt trips. DAMN. How many vibrant, well-dressed, well-coifed, highly-educated, reasonably attractive people can you cram into a 30 second spot? Did Plato dream up these professors? They look so accomplished, so thrilled to be sharing knowledge, so creative, so perfectly pleased with themselves to be engaging in research. Who are these people? Why are you tormenting me with them? And the music…don’t get me started. I see these uber-people and their big fat TIAA-CREF accounts, their happy fucking colleagues, their attentive students and I do not feel good about my retirement. I feel guilty, a little jealous of your fictive academic world, and pissed that you have so inaccurately misjudged the concerns of your current and future clients. You see, my hair needs to be cut and looks like crap. My colleagues generally dress in a mixed style of ill-fitting, washed a thousand times, Land’s End type wear with a dose of exotic flourishes acquired from faraway locations. They are generally not attractive. None of us ever look that happy. It’s not that we aren’t ever happy, we just don’t usually smile that much and look that pleased with ourselves— particularly while lecturing or performing surgery. I would love to live in your farce of an academic world. Those folks appear to be making some cash (can you guarantee their retirement will be equally pleasant?), they are having a profound impact on their students, and have the most spacious offices I have ever seen. These images do not inspire faith in your company. Look, stop assaulting me with this bullshit. Take my money and just hold onto it for me. Give me an ad showing me my future and how pleased I will be to have a stash of money. Show me an old graying professor out of touch with recent developments in their field, looking wearily upon their students, and fed up with their colleagues. Show me that professor gleefully entering their final final grades and heading to the airport for a tropical vacation with their TIAA-CREF money. That is what I want to see. Cue low-key inspiring music.

Confession II

Tenure… My life has been punctuated with a series of academic milestones. College, graduate school, more graduate school, tenure-track job. All occurred in rapid sequence. No time off, no breaks, no extra year here or there. I knew all of this would happen, because I decided that all of this would happen long ago when I took “Introduction to My Field” as a stoned undergraduate. The decision was not based on arrogance, simply the realization that I could excel in this field if I really wanted to. So, I did. My young stoned-self foresaw a clear life trajectory. As I approach tenure, which I will receive in a few months (that is not arrogance either, my record is more than sufficient), I should be happy. I am not. I have seen colleagues with egregious publication records, truly pathetic teaching skills, and the kind of collegiality that forces one to start a blog such as this one sail through the tenure process. I am realistic. I can admit that I am not a superstar of my field. But, if all of us in my field could be projected into a blank night sky, you could see my star without a telescope. It may not be the brightest, but it could be identified. I think that is all tenure takes really, a presence among a constellation of others that doesn’t require too much squinting and effort to see. But when I receive tenure you are placing me in a class of stars that I cannot be grateful to join— most are the types of stars that you can have named for a loved one for a small fee, a blurry little image capturable only by the most sophisticated of telescopes or your average computer user with access to Photoshop. I know, that sounds really lousy of me. But I’ve been working very hard, and I was hoping for a greater sense of accomplishment as I meet this milestone. It just seems like a starrified pile of bullshit, I say what you want me to, you vote how the Dean and the Tenure Committee wants you to, they vote how the BOT wants them to…and all of you want this to be a nice smooth sail. No lawsuits, no pissed off university factions, no future job search. But in following this course you are doing me no favor. With your past tenure decisions you are implying that my tenure is derived from your goodwill. This is not necessary. I actually published meaningful things, put effort into my classes, and consistently got my work done (on time I might add). Now here I am and none of this seems to matter.

It’s the equivalent of grade inflation, a topic we are all more than willing to discuss. Tenure inflation however, appears to be our most taboo subject. I am feeling twinges of guilt as I type. All academic milestones are letdowns, no degree earned or grant funded provides nearly the emotional high one hopes for. But these accomplishments do come with piece of mind, the comfort of knowing one’s efforts were recognized. But even this has been taken away through tenure. It simply doesn’t matter. Had I written half as much, blown my grant money on candy, and canceled all of my classes you would simply “explain” away my behavior at each successive review phase. My young self did not know this.

You Win

Excuse me, can I please say something? It will just take a minute. Thank you. We have been in this meeting for 1 hour and 20 minutes now. I have reached my limit. If this goes on much longer I will have no choice but to pry open one of these windows and escape. Person across the table: you can come with me, I see the pain in your eyes. Look, we have not addressed a single item on the agenda. NOT ONE. That is because we clearly have the wrong agenda. For the last hour, and now 25 minutes, we have had one single unwritten and unspoken agenda item. Our task? To openly declare that Dr. From Another Department is the most intelligent, creative, and well-spoken person to have ever graced our conference room. He’s been yammering for what is now going on one and a half hours… are his words not music to our ears? Can we not agree that our entire perspective on the universe is fundamentally changed by his various ramblings? What the hell dude? How long can you talk? We invited you because this is a multidisciplinary issue, we expected you to sit and be bored like the rest of us and chime in when needed. However, you have dominated the conversation. Well, it’s not even a conversation, more of a soliloquy on your part. Can we just have a quick vote and get this over with? All in favor of declaring Dr. From Another Department our new department head, personal mentor, and father of our children, vote, “AYE!” now, and we can get the hell out of here. Those not in favor, join me in prying open this window.

Snow Is Still Cold, And Also Does Not Cause The Copy Machine To Magically Gain New Functions

I know, why not! It is a perfectly logical conclusion to reach, snow is cold, the copy machine should really have fabulous new functions. Yet these two facts just don’t add up the way they should. Everyone in this building is frantically syllabiing (snow can cause the creation of new verbs). We all have mucho photocopying to do, and while it may seem logical that the snow has somehow enabled our machine to now work at lightning speed, take on numerous simultaneous print jobs, and most magically- create syllabi, it has not. Whatever snow ritual needed to happen, did not. What that means for us, despite causing serious metaphysical doubts in the minds of you snow worshippers, is that now is not the time for extraneous photocopying. I can’t imagine why you feel the need to make your TA photocopy old dissertations. Why today is the day I keep finding flawed copies of travel receipts, manuscripts, and very odd tables of data littered around the machine. Save these tasks for later. You can fail to collate those papers, cut off the amounts on your receipts, and set the contrast too high next week. For now, let’s just get back to syllabing.

Snow Is Cold, But It Does Not Cause Parking Spaces to Spontaneously Appear

Granted, there is snow on the ground. The lines delineating each parking space are obscured. But, if you are parking in this University Lot, then you have a permit. As such, you should be intimately familiar with the general layout and size of parking spaces here. Has there ever been parking directly adjacent to the front door of this building? I enter through that door every damn day. You’d think I would remember having to squeeze myself, my laptop, and my coffee past your bumpers every damn day…I’m pretty sure, make that certain, that there are no legal parking spaces here. Did Transportation come and add some new spots? If so, how did they manage to paint the lines without moving the snow? It looks like they must have altered the old spots too. It appears they have expanded the slot sizes, since every vehicle now seems to have 5 feet of space between it and adjacent vehicles. Since this lot can accommodate only half of its previous vehicle capacity, I guess they had to add those front door spots. But I wonder why they removed all the handicapped parking, and added that spot in front of a hydrant— seems odd. I should have driven to work today. I think I see a prime spot in the alleyway, it used to be a loading zone, but I swear, I now see some parking spot lines under the snow. Yep, can’t you see them? They’re white.